Nate and I split, but we never really *split*. We still spent our days together, worked together, and practically lived together.
Healthy? Probably not.
But it was comfortable, what we were both used to.
A few days ago, I packed a lot of my things and left.
The break-up itself? Painful. Utterly sad. Horrible. Crying, pain, hours of staring into space, wondering about the future, worrying about the past…
But this…
This is a whole new kind of pain. One I was completely fucking unprepared for, since Nate was my first and only long-term relationship. As I mentioned to a friend, we are like platonic soul-mates. We’re not right romantically, at least not anymore. But we’re close. BFFs.
And now I’m far away from him and I’m sad, he’s sad. Everyone is sad.
I was unprepared for this kind of sad.
So things on the blog might be a little slow. I’m still working, though. I have lots of things to do that are kind of brainless, so I will do those things and not worry about being super creative and writing a ton. I know it will get better, if only because I can’t imagine it could get worse.
We’ve ripped the band aid off, Nate-ben. *hug*
xoxo
Sadey
I am so sorry Miss Sadeybug. Breaking up with my first love hurt me every day for a year straight. I don’t think that will help you much, but I am sorry you are having to process this right now. At least you get to keep the friendship.
Oh Sadey, I am so sorry you’re hurting right now. I promise the pain will get better, although in the beginning it doesn’t seem like it. Know that I’m here for you with plenty of hugs…I even have an amusing song or too. Just check in every once in awhile, so I don’t worry
I’m so sorry – hugs from a virtual friend.
You sound so down. I really hope you feel better soon. *hugs*
So sorry. It hurts now, but it will get better and you’ll be able to be friends again without the pain. And you’ll meet someone you mesh with romantically (although now it doesn’t feel like it).
i’m so sorry you’re hurting!! i really can’t imagine the pain!! Hugs, from one of your faithful readers.
AZkaren
Hate to see you suffer, dear. Please breathe deep and treat yourself kind. Eat well and take some good rest. When you feel down don’t push yourself to get better, just tell yourself it is okay to stay here temporarily, and then you will leave this room of pain when you are ready, because you know there is a bigger world out there.
HUG!