It is funny how life goes up and down.
Yesterday: so fun! Lots of work done and lots of fun had.
Today: so sad!
Up down up down, rollercoasters.
I got CC’d an e-mail. The sender included the entire previous conversation, I assume inadvertently, in which a different friend of ours blamed both N and I for two things of which we were not responsible (and had already said that we didn’t do!).
Not big things, not life-altering things, but petty little things. Things that wouldn’t have really mattered if we had been responsible.
So I’m not so much annoyed that I’m being accused of doing things I didn’t do. I’m hurt because I’m being accused behind my back.
Good friends come to you when they thing you’ve done them wrong. I guess I’m mostly sad because I’m realizing the number of good friends I have is much lower than I’d like.
But, as N says, we can only control ourselves. And to be honest, I definitely have a similar problem in my personality: when something someone does starts to bother me, I usually won’t say anything. I’ll let the problem fester until the magnitude is ten times greater than what it originally was. And that… well, it’s silly.
I’m a nervous person and have trouble confronting people. But I hope I can work on that, and become better at handling conflict.
For now, I don’t feel like writing or working. I want to curl up with N and watch something to make me forget about the day. Forget that I don’t live in a perfect world, and my friends are not perfect people.